Coffee grounds elevate her ever dropping
My grandmother asks me to join her
in the addictive culture play
of turned cups
fate spilling remarks,
but not because she cares for the
caffeine levels in my blood
or how hyper I become after –
An independent woman:
strong, active, sharp,
lively qualities that are
fading with time.
dreams wither and unrealized futures
become dreaded realities,
tangents built on the circles
left on yesterday’s hopeful, empty cups.
Muscles attached to lenses let go of their grasp,
out of focus, her daily regiment breaks down
as the fourth dimension becomes
the only one she can traverse and endure.
She speaks of
pills that extend her deadline
but do not promise life, only time.
I decide to listen for once,
and discover a world richer than mine,
an unseen film with a longer running time
She brings me folded pages containing her favorite poems,
copied in her unique handwriting:
pieces of enlightened thought, anthologized.
Tumanyan, Aramais Sahakyan,
she has copied their painful words,
word by word in an ever-fading,
pains semi-permanently stained.
Despite the poetic copies in her
sugar carrying purse,
her infinite thoughts and reflections
of the grand mystery remain unwritten
and soon are to be forgotten
when they leave unsaid inside her brain,
I can’t tell her “I’m sorry” on behalf of life,
but I’m sorry anyway,
for if I survive the amount of years that she has –
I might be regretfully empty as well.
That’s if I don’t get enough of these down,
(an endless endeavor admittedly,)
in order to survive postmortem
as words in purses
or bits in machine cold to the touch
that have warmed containments
by a disc reading head,
wired up motherboard,
processor and volatile memory,
north and south bridge, ahh
you’re bored already…
but science is beauty.
I hope my children understand,
and sit down for coffee someday.
Hovhannes Mkhitaryan debuted on The Armenite with “Demolition Made.” He is a poet from Los Angeles, CA and the founder of Lines With Rhymes which recently published its first book. You can reach him here.